Sharvari
(An unsuitable journey towards LOVE!)
She was staring at herself in the mirror looking at her face, when everything went still. It was as if her entire past was staring back. It reminded her of how she started her journey from a small town in search of love, and how she was back at square one!
Born in lower middle-class family Sharvari was a bright child with one baby brother. Sharvari’s childhood was a phase of her life that had shaped her for all the tragedies of life. Perhaps she had seen too much of what we call life! Being the elder sister of the family she never lived her life, she was constantly pressured by her family to earn more money and support her parents. Deprived of love from her family Sharvari started finding love in books and music. She would spend all her free time reading books and singing songs. As she turned sixteen books and music weren’t enough to fulfill the love she needed. She had grown to be hopelessly romantic and could you blame her, she needed someone to love and acknowledge her.
She did so much to put herself out there so that she could find someone to love she participated in all kinds of activities to kill time. At the age of 17, she found her first date. He was a senior in school and that was her first kiss. She dated many men after that, she was dating constantly from 17 and she was 26 now. She never recalled being single for a while. Her experiences had made her more beautiful than she ever was. She fell in love with many of them. Here is the thing about people who are deprived of love, they cannot differentiate when to be available and when not to. They are always emotionally and physically available for those who show even a small amount of love or affection towards them. They think that it might make people want to stay in their lives and Sharvari was one of them she wanted them to stay. Sharvari never liked goodbyes but until now no one had stayed, Perhaps she was available all the time, for her, the world started revolving around the person she was dating. She thought her full attention might help heart find a permanent tenant.
Prabhat and Shyam were two guys she felt deeply for. Prabhat was the son of her boss in the company she worked as an associate. Prabhat instantly felt attracted towards Sharvari for her meticulous communication skills and her voice. Sharvari did not feel for Prabhat instantly as she was not ready to risk her job, but after prolonged efforts by Prabhat, she thought of giving it a try. After dating for almost a year Prabhat started dating some other girl from the same office behind Sharvari’s back. This was the tipping point for Sharvari as it broke her into pieces and why not, After all, she had given him all of herself. She was ready to leave she changed her job and got transferred to a different city, yeah! she ran away. It was not even a month in the new city when she saw Shyam.
She saw Shyam on her lunch breaks; Shyam was working in the adjoining company as an assistant manager. After a series of long stares and smirks at each other for days Sharvari finally asked him out for a coffee and it was her first time asking a guy out. The coffee dates became dinner dates and dinner dates became sleepover nights. Sharvari was infatuated with Shyam he was everything she needed. After a long time, she had felt butterflies in her stomach. Everything was like a dream come true. It was when she was not able to contact Shyam for more than two days. They have been going out for almost eight months now and she was really worried. Finally, she approached his colleagues when she got to know that Shyam had left for the US for a project. She was still, she felt like a tree without leaves and spring had just started. It was really a hard time for her. It took a while for her to completely accept the fact but she never lost hope. Funny thing hope is sometimes it gives you a reason to live and the other times it kills you. She regained her strength back and started looking for love again, poor Sharvari! Was she? Or she was the strongest of them all?
She was on a second date in a romantic restaurant downtown. His name was Vishal he was a quality engineer and it was perfect he made her laugh that was one of the reason she agreed to go on a second date. Everything was going good so far the talks, the food and the wine until she saw a familiar figure from the corner table coming towards their table and she froze! It was Shyam it had been almost one year and she had not seen him. but to her surprise instead of talking to her he was talking to Vishal and apparently he was his childhood friend that’s what she got to know from their conversations, and just when Vishal was about to introduce her Shyam grinned at her and all Sharvari was able to pull out was an uncomfortable Hi!. Shyam gave her a familiar smirk. She had to leave for the ladies room. She was trembling from mixed emotions running inside her head as if a hammer just hit her heart. She had to splash water on her face a couple of times to reaffirm what had just happened. She had to make a choice now, to stay? Or, leave? Trains of questions ran endlessly in her head her throat was dry due to all the heavy breathing. She just wanted to run away.
Her entire past stared back at her with a SMIRK!
(To Be continued…)
The Cosmos within me! 